Closed Doors Pg.13

the sun shines on my face calming every nerve in my body and every hair on my being. the smile from a stranger can be contagious. And unwillingly but happily i give in to the grin that laces my face from ear to ear. hmmmm... the hum and chirp of the birds frees my soul to enjoy the beauty of this world. so calm. innocent. this grass feels so good below me brushing gently against my skin tickling my senses and keeping my grin. i am calm and at ease. i am untroubled by the noise of silence and gladly welcome it into my bosom. it feels good. it feels great. it feels... peaceful. i am alone but not without company. i am single and yet my steps are coupled. But the stranger is staring at me as i try to lie in my comfort. and a darkness takes over me. the grass gets wet and cold. the stillness in the weather shifts into a windy breeze. i sit up from what was once safe and look around. The stranger has disappeared but the feeling is still there. and out of nowhere he is standing in front of me. what i thought was his smile is now a maniacal grin and he grabs me with both arms.

i jumped out of my dream to find my best friend lying next to me. He is undisturbed by my nightly terrors. I hold on to him as if he were my protector against the shadows that lurk in the waiting wings of the dark. to my pleasure he is aware and he takes hold of my arms around him and holds me close. i lay my head on his body but careful not to be too close to his left side. my arms rest at his mid-section. He is such a King in his own right. he has spent every night here with me since that night of the party. No questions have been asked. No awkwardness to confront. He's just been there. I never even asked if he had a girlfriend that was fussing with him as to his whereabouts. That's just the nature of our relationship. But I don't ask questions I don't want the answers to, so I can honestly say, I don't know. His phone never rings. There are no late night text messages buzzing us awake and so far there's no brick through his car windows. So I guess he's single. It's been a month or so. But I won't let this trouble me. At this point I understand people can hide everything just by simply putting it out in the open. I'm tired of thinking too hard. I just don't have the energy for it. I'm just thankful for the company.